for professionals for young people VLE staff login

Beautiful Creative Writing From an asphaleia Learner

In January, a group of our learners contributed to the January edition of the Visable Inc online magazine. They wrote pieces on their experience of coming back to education and the reasons why they left. The are compelling and inspiring pieces of creative writing, clearly written from the heart. We’re proud to be sharing them with you this week.

Young People thumbs up with visable Inc magazine

The Anxiety Box

Why I left: Anxiety

Why I’m back: I want to try and get some sort of education. I want help with my anxiety. I think I have that now.

“What’s your excuse?” My body speaks more than my mouth: I stumble, I stand still. All they did was put me at the back of the classroom. I can’t speak. My mind has made its decision – I need to get out. I need to know that the door is open. If I know it is, I’m more likely to stay. But they don’t understand that. Even if I could speak, what would I say? I look it up online – there is a word that I can’t pronounce – is this another box to be trapped in? If I can’t even say it, how can I face it?

I feel trapped.
I need to know that I can get out.
I know I need to calm down – but no one helps me to try.
Breathing  becomes bumpy.
I am panting pathetically.
I am making childish noises from my supposedly adult mouth.
I want to leave. I want to leave. I want to leave.

There are rules – I can’t leave whilst people are looking at me. Sometimes I feel that people trap me. My transparent box sees the eyes are staring in. I don’t even know how I got into the box, but somehow I keep going back in. I look it up online – there is a word that I can’t pronounce – is this another box to be trapped in? If I can’t even say it, how can I face it?

BY HB

To see this as part of the Visable Inc January publication, click here

#asphaleiayoungpersonsweek2019

asphaleia training logo

Comments are closed.